Day 4 - and why the black may have shown me the light

bah,...it gets tougher
as subconciously i feel fat, fatter and fattest...
some girls i have had crushes on are finding new crushes....nothing majorly crushworthy news here just felt like saying that ....

day 4.....
i am able to resist the smoke...
but i am not able to understand why i am putting on weight
or i feel as such......
well planning to start running....yes me and running...i avoided running all my life just cos i hated it....must have had something to do with the monotony or the lubdublubdublubdublubdub..........

anyway, 2 weeks ago, i was , yet again in a social gathering, where i was the only smoker and had no packs on me. But one such social smoker claimed he had the Blacks, a clove scented smokes which i tried and didnt really get my "fix" as with marlboros and other ciggies.....i poohpoohed it cos maybe there was no real cigarette......

later in that nite, i had gone to a club, where the bouncer came up with this startling announcement that the blacks are extremely high in nicotine content.....it slapped me a bit askew and made me wonder what in the world was i addicted to?

nicotine? guess not
tar ? maybe but guess not
the physical act? seems so..........so a pyschological retraining is in necessity for me to get through this quitting of smoking...

Comments

Tan said…
Did you leave it completely? Let me know on completion of one week, one month and one year ... we will go hand in hand ;)
11/26/2008 5:35 PM
Chanakyaa said…
well day 5....
i intend to document my progress and hopefully not regression...
i will definitely let you know how i am coming along..and hopefully u 2....

tis tough to have been a pack a day smoker for last 12 years to absolute zero...
11/27/2008 2:58 PM
Moonstruck Girl said…
Way to gooo!!! :)
Hope you abandon it for good! :)
As to why you feel fatter? I suppose we feel hungrier when we quit smoking..

Love,
Me
11/28/2008 9:03 AM
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