ARVIews on Life or whatever it is

Well, tis been quite a while since i last posted. In an ancient post of mine. i had predicted AShes to go 2-1 ozzies ...but they have already destroyed my prediction and are up 3-0-0. India systematically lost 4-0 the one dayers...i had predicted 4-1 ...well one rain out ... but then the sweetest of sweet of my misprediction.....RSA 1-0 (2-0 even) is now completely torn asunder as desh is 1-0 up after a fantastic win. and who did it? Dada, Lax, Zaheer, SreeSant, kumble, sachin,vrv,drav....heck the whole team.... how long its been since a complete team performance (well barring jaffa.....) perhaps, next game, jaffa out, bring in karthik as opener (is he around?) and retain the team as it is...... i will be in surgery the next time game is on..... hope i can come back sooner and start posting .....

ok, no time for any other postings as i have been quite busy with doing mostly nothing....but heck had to post this one. Dravid injured, Lax the Man in!!! is he or is he not? rather will he or won't he should be the apt question. tho it does beg, what are the passengers in form of mongia and raina doing..should they not be given a chance? or is lax the man in for WC07 too? pretty pleased with KDKarthik...i hope he finds a permanent place as a keeper and batsman and perhaps dhoni move to a fielder??? shewag captain!!!! doh! now he cant be dropped...grrrr india plainly sux.

well the results have come from election 06 (well almost..at time of writing Montana and Va are too close)...Dems have taken the house first time since 94....tis gonna be a repeat of history? are we gonna see some eco boom cycle in next 8 years? a la 96-2000? Senata damn....49 apiece, with 2 to go....is there a more divided country in this world? what will this mean to India? reduction in outsourcing? no but a tighter noose perhaps. reduction in war expenses...this means govt basd jobs may not necessarily the best thing to look into and hence tendency to ship R&D to india might be reduced. economy upswing in USA, growing dollar against Rupee strength which means bounded growth in India. Will the boom in India come to a halt now? or at least is saturated? who knows....and how these will affect me personally is what i am more inclined to look at.

The odds have been out by BBC in the aftermath of champions T. Ozzies clear ahead.....india edge out RSA,Paki and Windies.....thats the small difference.but i say india cannot edge out the 3.... on other cricketing news, sachin has come out and said,nay declared, that things will improve. haven't really seen sachin this aggressive? perhaps signs of things to come? we can only wish...

CA- computer assosciates CEO - doh! LCO- lack of coverage (double doh!!!) If anyone has ever read my blog or had picked my blackening grey cells, it would have been clear how aversive am i to the desi media lapping up for any success by anything remotely indian. Bobby Jindal for example. But tis not the same when there is some other news on the dark side. for instance, the canadian columbine wanna be was a desi.... but media coverage on the desi media side was not surprisingly awol.... lately, CA'sCEO was convicted for his fraud. CaCEo was in big news in desi prints when he was the blue eyed boy but this news....nada,zippo, zilch coverage....except in the next day as an after thought....maybe i am wrong and i missed it all and i wonder if anybody could ever point out some reasonable coverage. other lack of coverages...hmmm actress srividhya's death....hardly a mention....there could be a lot more... ....if it is blue eyed boy in Britain, what is it in india? fair skinned ? -arv...

Champions trophy was blazing till the last game. Windies were trying to be vintage Windies, all calypso and flair. To be truthful, they were Gayle and chander but leaving that aside, twas nice to see the team kinda come up a bit to recapture the glory days. Truth be told, there is a distinct happiness in any true cricket lover (read not just indian cricket lover) to see the revival of the Windies. The flair and the irritating inconsistencies is just poetry. India for all its gung ho batting lineups and dhonis can never ever really capture the imagination that the windies do...at least mine. Well am i happy ozzies won? no and yes....no cos i hate ozzies :-) yes cos they deserve to. something south africa didnt do and neither did india was to pounce of the slightest of weakness offered by the west indies and decimate them. But ozzies, just a lil inch of weakness and man o man how they take the chance. thats sheer professionalism and talent. yes also, cos champs winners dont win world cu...

tis just a small post ...but every time i come to a conclusion, life just throws me a googly.... legal recourse may not be the only option...till the next googly comes about..... aiyiyi.............. more later.......

What a phenomenal picture....i mean sure, we have seen multitudes of all the different pictures but to have of India's freedom fighters and INC leaders is brilliant. And yeah the phenomenal part of this picture was it was sent to me by my manager @ AUDC. And then there is the picture which C is putting up...maybe i will see if i can put that one here too....

last i posted was a good 15 days ago. so much have developed and so much continues to go devolve. if there is one thing i am going to learn from whatever has happened in my life, there is nothing u can predict in this life. well at least mine.... audc is different. old school, different kind of work, different kind of people. i am just hoping that i make the best outta the opportunities i have here and not play drop ball. what is most crucial is keeping my creativity amidst this relatively on the surface laidback atmosphere and keep the team motivated challenged and progress....whew.....challenges aplenty... some acrimonious fights over the split has really resulted more and more complex situation. the outlaws are leaving and that leaves me solely in charge of the payments etc and i have to sell the house soon. like i said life is unpredictable. its like i am just hell bent on hurting myself for the folly of having fallen in love with X. well, legal recourse is the only option i have n...

tis been a bit since my last post. and this too is just a brief rejoinder to myself to continue the posting. well vonaged indeed i have....20 months, i am out, better and worse than i was in many different aspects. onto audiocodes. first day has been not at all bad... a private room, big one too....quite some responsibilities and above all stones throw from the casa. the farewell times was good, drunk on thursday nite, fri morning was emotional, sat and sunday spent time almost always sleeping felt happy today joining audc... i am onto bigger and better things..... more later....

what a last coupla days.... yesterday, i finally summoned guts to give away tintin and shadow...so there goes my dreams of griztindow. i was so sad at the parting and felt like the worst mf in the world...but i think its for the best. tehy will have a great life ahead with some nice family. grizzly, tho quiet slept with me in the bedroom. he was so calm and sober...maybe too sad...but he had fun at the beach with me and C. C is so cool..i reall y like her... as a friend....with Ps(??? :-) ) new life for Griz and me.....i am prepping for the last week @Vonage and move to AuDc...or the company if it starts....lesee... mofos..i need money maan..... C is in some lil soup.... then i have to pay for J's book....eh....money comes money really goes............................ -a

just decided to post some corny poems i wrote when i was/am in a downtime....just bear it... bad moment fir me.......

you are not just my love, you are my core essence. you are not just a friend, you are my angel. you are not just a beauty, you are what inspires God to create. yours is not just a smile, yours is what makes God give a rainbow. yours are not just eyes, yours are what opens this world to the most joyous things. yours is not just a personality, yours is the epitome of love and respect and honor. you are not just a woman, you are goddess of the grandest order. i am not just a man i am yours for ever, to love you and to be proud to be with you. My love,life and every little essence is yours and only yours.

pebbles in sand, alive and jump with joy.... drops in the ocean, glisten and flow with pride.... the specs in the air, float and scream with delight for amidst them, lay the angel whose beauty lay beyond compare. leaves in the trees, bristled and wagged in ecstasy..... blades in the grass, arose and shone fantastically.... the dirt in the land, bowed and made way for amidst them, lay the angel whose smile brought the sun to shame. stars in the sky, embarrased and moved aside.... clouds hovering over, ran away and painted the sky azure.... tide in the sky, abated and painted a picture serene for amidst them, lay the angel who the moon gets her radiance from. heart of mine, skips and runs amok..... eyes of mine, flutters and glistens in pride.... life of mine, rises and realises its worth for i am , in love with the angel who has no par.

some envy you some hate you some are scared of you.... some wish they were like you some know they can never be like you some just hate you..... know that it is cos you are one of a kind layman cannot take such a fine woman like you .... be confident in yourself, know ur strength and greatness.... know that, nobody can diminish you... just like my love for you can never be diminished.... keep you head up girl....u are above all this... such low ppl are just but dust on ur feet.... u are destined for the skies.... and my love will be there for u whereeveru go.... keep smiling pretty woman........

worry not...if i tell u so.... what i see from the heart of mine...... know so or not, accept it or not.... you are always in the heart of mine. worry not...if i tell u so..... what i know from the mind of mine...... know so or not.... accept it or not..... you will be always in the mind of mine. worry not...if i tell you so..... what i know from the blood of mine.... know so or not.... accept it or not.. my annoyances, you will miss if i am not around....... worry not....if i tell you so..... what i know of you.... know so or not... accept it or not...... u are always my love.................. worry so....if i tell you so if ever,with a sigh know so or not... accept it or not.... not have my love for you, only if i die.

o beads of flower, as you float through the air, guide me to the heart of the woman i seek the most and i love the most. with eyes that have not slept, i earnestly recognize that, the woman i love the most is the sunrise of my day. the face that i see, is that of yours and that is my paradise. the words i hear, are those u say and that is my anthem. all i have to ask is God, to give me the chance to show, the woman i love the most, how i love her the most. o bead of flower, that float thru the air, please tell my love, that i am her true love and will always wait for her.

o, my love, the one with such hair of such flow, why u seek elsewhere, ur lover is me right here, always thinking of you. o,my love, the one with such smile beatific, why u look anywhere, i will always love you, in health and in sick. o my love, the one with such eyes dazzling, why u hear to strangers, your true love is I and I will be with you though life and its dangers. o my love, the one with the most wondrous love. u may seek elsewhere, u may look anywhere, u may listen to strangers, but i will always remain your one true love in this life and seven more.

why does the flower, in its fullest bloom.... at times do they bow their heads? why the full moon, in its fullest radiance.... at times does it seek to hide behind the cloud? why does the cloud, in its darkest magnificence.... at times do they seek to dissipate away? why does the sun, in its brilliance harshest.... at times do they seek to hide behind the mountains? why does the ocean, in its flow strongest..... at times does it seek to lay low meekly? the answer my girl is not blowing in the wind, but it is you. your beauty, beyond compare, your love, beyond measure... your charm, beyond brilliance puts all other God's creation to shame. why does then, i always seek to brave where others seek to flee ? The answer, my girl is not blowing in the wind, but it is my love which is always be there for you whenever and wherever and however.

if anytime i think, my life's craziness has subsided, I get jolted into reality that God's play is but divided into acts and scenes. exeunt scene N, enter scene N + 1 with more and different twists.... just hold on to the seat arvi, the ride sure is something different.... anyway, did the piss test...was glad the cup filleth with my watery joy.....sorry cudnt resist .... .....enroute, spoke to appa and found out amma had some lump....i was a bit concerned but appa said twas nothing major....anyway, enroute , i had to pee again and had to rush in to villa somna (near Vonage) , found the men's room was occupied, rushed into hte ladies room and .... satisfied i felt like Captain Kirk going where no man had gone b4..... ....got the car..went to a pizzeria and the beach....twas nice and sweet and fun.... back home, spoke to appa and amma and found out amm has lymphoma...that scares me ...rather depresses me....she says twill be ok...i sure hope so... God shows the path to one an...

saturday was a misgiving ....it started off pretty normally i wud say..went to see Holmdel MCl team play the beekman CC... as usual, and as well put by suresh, we just made it interesting enough to win a close game..sheesh...i need to play soon.....surgery on 5th and then the eventual rehab should hopefully make my next season a good one..... then onto nyc....enroute, i was thinking wtf am i doing ...but the answer was well i am enjoying and htats all that matters...and it was a wonderful time i had with C.O @some random park in village (willage) and mercedito (sic??) and luca lounge...luca was nice...helped mself to coupla guiness.......met this chick who was a dead ringer for keira knightley....anyway the nyc was a great time as usual....was a trifle sad, when i passed gonzalez y gonzalez...but hey ..life goes on ...time to move on.... and i was driving back...at 230 am, get a call from mrs outlaw saying cops are at home cos the dogs were barking...had to talk with the cops regardin...

weird day today. I had submitted my resignation to Vonage....Wonage as i am supposedly pronouncing it according to ponygal7... I feel sad. the whoohoo days are over but i have to be loyal to my career. well i hope to pass the drug test and then i move to audiocodes / ai-logix. and hten of course there is the startup and hopefully that materializes. saw the lil miss sunshine..twas funnily weird. and then the later part of the nite just kinda made me feel depressed. i am not sure hwat is going on in my mind but i think i am hitting some blues. ....aaah the accursed mind of mine... well, as far as X goes, not a hint of message...guess she really hates me now....silly gal...her loss this time definitely. i dont care anymore.... big things are in store for me. i am excited and nervous. God please help me. submitting resignation was a bit fun, as it made me realise ppl did value me around....a bit sad as i am now without a job...i mean need hte drug test pass grade....and a new endeavor. som...

i have deleted the previous blogs cos i had not realised how ridiculously anger filled it was. anyway, i need to move on...and the first step is to get rid of the old blog. will i be posting more??? hmm dont know.....will see..... btw FMI, the blogger beta is the site not the blogger .....crap!